Arrrrrrrrrgggggggggh

Don't like living this way... Hand-to-mouth, working my ass off for nothing, feeling sad and angry all the time... J has no energy, not faking, actually worried that there is something wrong. Feels like I have lost not all, but much direction in life... again... Just wanted it to work and thought I made the right choice... Well, there was'nt much of one, was there? I had to do it! Weining and crying won't take me far... Just going around with DC:s "Survivor" in my ears: "I'm a survivor, I'm gonna make it, I'm a survivor, not gonna..." lie down and die for nothing :)! God, eventhough probably no one reads these lines it feel better already :)... Just wishing it could be February, or even better March now! Miss having a life I can call my own...

Died... woke... and am alive again

Love to be in a state where I just can relax... Sometimes I wonder if J is really the One for me... Once in a while I feel I get more done with him out of the way and then the mornings cuddling together under the cover... Jeeeses :)... Didn't dare to hope that a person could feel that good to have near... But a lot of hard work though...

Christmas miracle??

O lord, what has happened? Quite calm and still... Something wrong, especially since the sun is shining ;D?

Work

Just one of those days...

Playing in the morning

Sunday school at radio... But no religion things (sorry mom), but just fun games... Need an MP3- or not ;)... But like to play games...

Nite nite :)

Writing with a brain that just doesn't seem to work.. No out of the ordinary when it comes to me... I am starting to realize that that doesn't make me better or worse than anyone else. That just makes me me... Just have to get some sleep now... Long day ahead tomorrow...