The power of forgiveness

Sometimes I have a tendency (I guess like most people) to be a bit "yappy" instead of solving the trouble at hand. Yesterday I hurt someone by talking about some one behind that person's back. I should not be doing that, since I have had my fair share of that one myself.
So, with setted certain things set straight by an old wise man (thanx Roge... although I guess you don't like to be called OLD and wise :P), I called and apologized to the certain person and straighten things out. He was happy that I called. And here I am, with a warm feeling and a smile on my face. And in some ridicoulous way proud of myself. Oh my Lord, am I becoming an adult :D?

And Tina, bless your heart. And you're right. Mind the important things, not the rest!! Please, you all, keep your fingers crossed on Thursday between 09-10 CET. I want to make things happen there and then. Will be back on the matter. Promise!

Dingle dongle...

There are certain things in life that really makes you stronger unless they break you. My temp-job during the summer obviously was the latter category. I am proud to say that I lasted all the way through although the bosses and SJ (our government run train company here in Sweden) had me going more or less nuts. My poor J was really tired of hearing me the last few weeks, bless his soul...
But...
Now, with all the financial worries and all, no-one dares to hire. So here I am. But it has only been a couple of weeks yet, so still a little "vacation-feel" to it...

Oh ye old marveeelous men that have more authority than brains...

Sighhh... Have had someone at close hand at work (the temp. for now) that have more authority than brains. He is well spoken, nicely dressed and talented. But the human heart and empathy seems left behind. He is an excellent "rank-climber", he for sure has broken that "code". But he simply can't handle human relations unless it means being able to bully someone. Sounds like "the Office", does it? Although this guy is a little bit less "creamy" than Ricky Gervais and a little less smart. He is so... annoying. Recognize the type anyone?? He violated every rule set by those who teach management. But no worries... He is good for the company *ironic non-happy grin*.

Just wish they could let me out of there.It is costly, non-enlightening (unless counting how many ways you can harm a person's faith in herself!) and just... useless. Would be good to be able to resign early. Kindly SN, KB and especially SG!! Miss ya'. Get back soon!!

Auch...

Well, got the job... But not the one I wanted... And the back is sore again! Frustrating to say the least... But the new rooster of the court yard is real nice. Just too bad that some real old and sour hens are allowed to run around and stick their beaks where they don't belong.
No complaints from me though. The old hens have just a month left and then I believe there will be some fresh air in. Not me though, too far off and far too small community around the company. I guess I have gotten a bit "tinted" from living pretty close to a large town for a while. The county slogan is "to live at the country side in the centre of the city". That is not really true, but I guess 10 minutes to the absolute city centre will have to do ;D.
Funningly this has become more home than anywhere else before. My birthplace town does not feel like home anymore. A community like N, where we lived before the move to where we are now, would be nicer than what we have now (and sadly, yes, not with the "cultural mix" we have now- it just doesn't work), but that is pointing fingers at bread crums.

Even more confused

A week since last time around... And now I am even more confused. Got praises and flowers from the swine and his piglets? Someone who has learned his lesson?? A bit bitterish for me in that case. But this job wouldn't have worked evenhow... Someone's far to close to my senses, and heart for that matter, but have to have space that I probably am unable to give just because of that. But, as they say, the highest sense of love is to be able to let go. From someone's side, it is not a case of letting go, since someone has never grasped hold. But the hurt is no less for that. It is time to move on now, in many senses.

Luckily for me the interviews keeps pouring in. I just hope there are someone out there that can make a decision soon. The "runner-up" today, might be a good one in many senses. I might have an opportunity there to really try my wings. Perhaps if it all works out, try to get my own apartment down there or something. Have felt an urgent need for space lately. But also urgent needs for warm embraces once in a while. Who ever said that life is easy *;)*? A sore throat as well... many industrial country problems here :). Nighty night...

Some light at the end of the... tunnel?

Well, finally there seems to something shaking for me. A certain someone that I met by phone once before, wants to meet me for a job which I might really suited for... I hope. Sounds like a lot of fun, but only six months and... What the **** am I moaning about?? Six months is far better than nothing... Get a grip babe ;)! And dear Sarah might have something as well. Just have to send her my application... But the sal.. Gone there again... Will earn more on that job than my unemployent fee evenhow...

Still confused...

But the angel has to learn to let go as well... Having his job mobile on on a Sunday *shaking head in disbelief*?? Well, dad has promised to buy everything the angel wants... Or carry it rather. But well, two weeks to go. I am surely counting the days. But I am afraid I am not done crying yet. The wounds will sure hurt for a while yet...

I needed a *hmm*... which I got today. It made things a bit easier. I hope it will stay that way. The weather is helping. Barely June at the west (="best") coast of Sweden and already the temperature is touching +30 on the Celcius scale (someone good at converting between F and C could perhaps tell me about what it is at the F-scale??), which makes it easier to take the clothes off. And get what is, once in a while, needed.
The cheapest toy I ever store bought (25 SEK, about 2, 5 EUR!) and that effect!! What the toy is? A "man-with-batteries" that have an outer casing (so to speak) which can be filled with water. The water induced vibrations are...beyond belief good! Can highly recommend it...